MMMMMMMPH

so incredibly pissed off with myself now it's scary.

yup so here i am at 1am typing something that no one else including myself is going to see unless they're extremely boredddddd but i guess boredom is what led me here in the first place. yes anyway to back why i'm annoyed: i'm starting to think that i've got to stop being so goddamn shallow and superficial; no i don't need that pair of wedges so why am i so upset over the fact that i didn't get the opportunity to spend money that i really can't part with right now; i need to stop browsing and hoping and daydreaming because i'm never actually going to have the guts to do anything with them; need to stop being hung up over the same guyasshole (thanks brenda) for so damn long and actually get out there and move on; need to stop putting so much emphasis on outward appearance...k being realistic here i can't do this, it's how i was brought up: we don't look like slobs in my family; need to stop missing the forest for the bloody trees all over the place.

maybe my mindset's changing cause four levels of f21 didn't tempt me at all...although anything would be an improvement over the me of the past two months.

sorry i dont have the stamina for long posts so i'm just going to stop abruptly, close sgflea and karmaloop, shove new ODD stock and all my new clothes off my bed, close my eyes and try to summon sleep even though it's gna be impossible cause i slept five hours in the afternoon.

glad i got that out though, i think it helped.

-bigass picture of atacoma and ashish wedges-

although something won't ever change: i am a shoewhore.