MMMMMMMPH

Today was a sad, sad day.
Btw everyone I lost my pledge card so whoever wants to go make a police report with me...yeah. But I think the police officers will just laugh at us hysterically and shove us out of their office zzz. Because that'd probably be what I'd do to people who reported loss of pledge cards :D
Back to sad.
Nearly failed 50% chinese :X
That was baddddddd.
And apparently almost the whole 314 failed 60% for maths, which is really scary. Esp. when the math of some people I know in 314 isn't that bad >(
I don't wanna get my papers back alr!!
And the chinese lecture teacher told us there were single-digit marks for chinese lecture! (WHICH IS UPON HUNDRED). And then I started thinking I probably got a single-digit mark esp. since the paper was some tough shit.
DIE, DIE!!!
Today chinese lecture was awesome. No tables so we took chairs as tables and sat on the floor = I used chair to hide face and sleep (: Totally awesome. So I slept v v peacefully until I got awoken but some freaking shrill loud sound because apparently some cockroach was crawling around? Eh, super disgusting.
I think this is a v long post! :DDD
Anyway to elaborate about cross country. I think Chow/someone else told us today something along the lines of, don't you like Macritchie? So much better than Turf City! No slippery slopes, no up and downs...?
HAHAHA, YEAH RIGHT! He/they obv didn't run the thing ;D suckazzzz.
I'M NOT RUNNING NEXT YEAR OKAY. I TOTALLY NOMINATE SAL TO TAKE MY PLACE.
Now that I've gotten that over and done with (;D), I plan to sleep really early today. As soon as I 1) Find my pledge card 2) Play my obligatory piano 3) Shower.
Wait, there's more!
4) Do AMES 5) Have sex with a complete stranger of the same sex for $1000000 (one million dollars. Pounds. Whichever is more).
I didn't just make that up ok! It was a real survey question.
:D
Apparently Kai wouldn't do it because "it goes against her morals," yet these upright, ethical (monkey!!) morals allow her to continuously lust after 50 year old balding guys with greasy shoulder length hair and a perpetual sneer.
*shrug*.
And that guy!! >( He asked us, "ARE YOU DOING YOUR N LEVELS this year?" Like wtf?!
Eh, I'm hungry.

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In the early hours, when he is still asleep, she begins counting the tiny black
and white tiles plastered to the ceiling of their flat. Some are chipped, some
are covered by a layer of dust, and some are not tiles at all, but cockroaches
in disguise. By 143 he has stretched his arms and kissed her neck, by 206 he has
tied his shoes and lit a cigarette, and by 262 he's always gone. She knows that
the smell of coffee will dissipate by 329 and that if she can bother getting out
of bed to call her worried mom for once, or even just go to the damn bathroom,
he will be back by 2338.

If she counts slowly.

--

Sometimes, late at night, when she has named all of the constellations
she knows without the familiar sound of his second-hand car pulling into their
garage, she likes to sit and ponder, with a bottle of Jack Daniels, where she
went wrong. She wonders if by living here with him she’s wasting away the best
years of her life, years she could have spent at college in order to get a job
and buy a house, a real house without tiled ceilings. This is always as far as
she gets in her musings, because she usually begins to cry, or sometimes she
simply passes out on the stain-resistant carpeting only to wake up in their bed
the next morning.

"When are you going to take up writing again?" he asked her once as she examined the threadbare sheets, a beer bottle in her left hand.

"When are you going to stop being such an ass?" she replied stiffly, and the house was silent for 74 tiles. That night she slept facing the wall, and he never brought it up again.

She is 19 years old.

--

"Every black tile is a reason I love him. Every white tile is a reason we will never end up happily ever after"

She writes this on the back of a napkin with a cheap ballpoint pen and tapes it to the wall where she can see it. Afterwards she watches a documentary on the Milky Way, because contemplating revolving balls of gaseous heat and the infinitesimal reaches of frigid space makes her own problems seem so insignificant.

She wants to escape into the galaxy she is watching on the Discovery Channel. Her own planet’s gravity is pulling at the bags beneath her eyes, and her hands and feet feel heavier than normal, so that every movement is an effort. She is a statue. A marble girl.

She decides she will simply never move again, and the napkin flutters in
a non-existent breeze, mocking her.

--

When he presses her up against the clean white walls and kisses her like he never plans on stopping, she thinks Earth might sort of be ok.

--

[Taped to the fridge.]

2,669 - B
2,668 - W

--

It is at night when he is running his thumbs over that secret dip in her clavicle that he is most contemplative.

"Do you love me?" he asks, his mouth muffled against the skin of her shoulder

She runs her knuckles against his forearm and wonders about the galaxy that may or may not exist between them.

"There are 5,337 tiles," she finally answers, “and 2,669 of them are black.”

"I know." He rolls them both over so that he is beneath her and she cannot see the
tiled ceiling or the stars before pulling her down to whisper in her ear.

"Sometimes I count them."

I can't stand it I love this story so so much!
CREDITS TO NAT, WWW.HUIJIA.BLOGSPOT.COM. I don't write such good stuff.